Hello, this is Taiko.
Last night I attended a study group.
The theme there was "pride."
What is pride for me?
How can you increase your pride?
About 10 people discussed the following online.
Here's a summary of what I thought at that time.
What is pride?
First of all, what is "pride"?
What should I protect?
Fear?
Something you can't give up?
There have been various opinions, but in my case
it is "encouraging."
To be honest, I am a "coward."
Even though there is a chance right in front of you, you are afraid of the outcome and do nothing and make a safe choice.
I've been doing that for over 40 years.
I know it's a waste, but I just can't make a choice that suits my goals.
scared.
I know.
But I can't.
I think this is a barrier to pride that you want to show off your strength.
However, this pride should be a ally who can act with courage.
How can I do that?
I came up with a number of ideas, but I realized that someone had said this.
Rather than what you need to do, it's about identifying things you don't do.
As soon as I became a freelance I first created a "toll-do list."
I wrote 50 articles, including: - Don't commute
, don't do unnecessary work
, don't discounts,
Certainly, I feel like I've been less confused after doing this.
Just changing your perspective on something can be so effective!
Why did I attend the study group?
The reason why I attend this study group is that "I want you to help me"
to whom? → To someone other than yourself
The more you realize how painful it is to not be able to make choices, the more painful it becomes.
This is why we receive feedback from many different people.
But then there's no progress.
What should I do?
I joined because I wanted to overcome such frustrating everyday life.
When I continue playing Aikido, I wonder, "Why are you continuing?"
I want to show off my cool and strong side?
Because you want to praise him?
Because you want to be recognized?
why? I don't know, but I think there's also "pride" there.
I can do more! I want something like that guarantee.
I want to be confident in being Japanese.
I want to abandon my weak self.
But strength may only ooze out when you accept weakness.
I think I'm cool and strong right now.
So, if you just say "help me," your life will accelerate all at once.
That's what I thought at the study group.
summary
For me, pride is both an enemy and a companion.
In the end, it's yourself.
But I have my own limits.
That's why I honestly ask those around me for help.
I wonder if this is probably my problem?
I wonder how many times I wanted to quit Aikido.
My pride got in the way and I felt frustrated.
I'm sure he didn't like being seen as "embarrassing."
But perhaps the most embarrassing thing is to hold back on that.
Anyway, I start by outputting anything.
And get feedback and receive it properly.
I would like to produce output in the study group community.
